संपर्क फ़ॉर्म

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सोमवार, 25 जून 2012

OMG--- Married


OMG the words meanings and sense is same in all the successful marriage relation in the world ...the level of satisfaction and depth of expectation is endless...its not me... its not u its us ..;)
" We are either alone or have the wonderful friend forever.. since the day we r married .. u miss ur life .. ur choice ..u are made for a thing that to be worth or not there is no one to decide for that ,even ur are clear to ur point but u can never explain it to any one ,where he/she is wrong.. having the feel of it, u know u get different opinion ....u start choosing and find there path most probable for u …..But still dialogue are same
I will give one year for the thing to happen the way they should ,I know I could never be understood by him/her ……………I know he do not even try to go for it ……………my work my feelings are not understood by him/her …he/she  has no interest in my interest …………. He/She never understood the time when I cry ………when I need a hand when I need help …we r same in choices but have different taste ……………I know I understand him/her but he always have complaints our intensities r different I m matching it but I can expect same support ………he/she is supportive he/she is very nice .I do not know how I m going to handle this .we r same but still different …………in many ways …………but I know one thing we love them firm the deepest corner of our heart ………."

Life is bundle of surprises ……
The turn u decide change its direction just by one action
U r turned by your own u r mold by ours
U r choices and arguments r use less
The bearing and baring of the part had been given in the particular formats
The style and the perfection have revealed inside one
The diplomacy and the simplicity merge in it
Swiftly fly the wings in the sky u see u r gone
Break the limits and shift to the part ur heart says .
Ur tears r always in vane ,u r work, ur  feelings r always vague
U r smile is fake  ,u r doing have no matter u r no where
Ur standings r exceptional,
Never unleash ur thought they have no respect no hearing
U r presence is ignorant ur bonds might go stronger
Both ends  they r compromising they sacrificing they r working on relation but all fake.....

सोमवार, 18 जून 2012

Eight years of father's day ---my papa





""Still If I need to say something to GOD is just Thank you for giving you ..It means a lot to us ...An ideal dad Who forget his pain when look at us ..May God take your pain away Forever ..... We know we are bhagwan ji's favorite childeren""




Eight years before --  a second had turned our life in the new zone .Never expected not heard not prepared .But by the grace of God we get the most precious thing back into our lives ---Yes My papa
A miracle after no sign of life,head injury,3 months of comma,excessive bleeding,delay in treatment,diabetes much more was beaten by the blessing and mercy on us .We have no word to thank and when Bhagwan want to keep things good and straight for you he did it.HE make ways and give the strength and choices .But the realization of this thought was now.. when we have passed the tough time .At that time the second seems to be like an hour and every day we wish we can hear something good but doctor had never given us positive answer till an year....today dr is happy to see him like this ..we were  in the hospital for 3 months and not seen a person survived head injury...it is scary and painful. we learn t lot of lessons we met the worst and best of life ..this is place where we are handicapped where nothing works and everything looks in vain..
There is a super power that work and capture the mind by building and aura over it.
I was neutral my mom was crying ..my sister and bro are shocked and everybody too..My tauji  with report carry reports all possible places for best treatment...we do all pooja and  consult best possible astrologer. I still remember face of fear in eyes of  my tauji and chacha the efforts they put.... the emptiness in there eyes  still remember when they look at my papa face as if pleading please say something........... we are not looking at each other we are hiding the pain from each other ..my mother hold me n said get me papa......I had those word is echoing in my ears till my father get back his voice. We have closed the gates to take papa else we are ready to go with him....
There are people who  came and said get married your daughter ...do not send your son to college (.....can you Imagine father is struggling with life and death) ...he was comma can he walk eat or do exercise
we get angry n annoyed  but mom n taiji  says may be we also react if it happen to someone else ...she was so true ...........yes may be ...!!
All elders have BP and diabetes they forget it ...my taiji she make 40 paranth and come to hospital at 8:00am (bravo!!)tauji awake till late night to switch the duty .My mom had sever pain of spondilites and BP and joint pain but she sleep on floor till papa was in ICU   My mamaji cancel his very important trip to Canada....everybody forget there pain .....people are flooding in the hospital to see papa .....Every day till 3mths I put tilak from different temple .his students are coming to see him.
I can see what my papa earned in his life.........I am so satisfied and confident that yes My father has to recover.We pray for opening and eye God Listen to us ..HE is just delayed to give power back in his left hand and leg I believe HE will.
My papa strength,positivity,healthy routine  and will power works miracle .A person on bed from so long must leave hope and get negative but My daddy strongest he respect life ..before accident he get up @ 5 and go for walk make morning tea (amazing taste)then evening walk. So fit exempt from bad habits.Teach student so that he can understand better..loving and caring husband and super dad .Can't see us working at all.still when we need peace and solution he is the best person to go with.Very practical and amazing sense of humor.Nurture with simplicity, grace and values.No fights ever but straightforward. He get so much love and give so much love .....
 My sis was in bathroom and my father called her she is coming and skipped on floor my dad forget his pain and ran to hold her and fell down get minor hurt on head but still asking my sister she is okay or not .....(do anyone can understand this love)
When I was getting married 4 days before my marriage he called and ask me "Ritu as soon as you r free come to me I want to talk to you" ..I was surprised ...Then he put hands on my shoulder and said   ""you are going to different place love them, respect them, do nicely whatever they ask for ..if you go to other country remember to spend accordingly.Know about the currency converter.Be happy n make everyone happy " These words always echo in my ears always.
We had a person who said what is the see of living life this but ask we don't explain them anything


Celebration and father's day means so much to me ever in my life.. I never thought for .. I gift my mother on women day mother day and her b'day as I want her to feel special and happy ...I do it for papa(that's what I call him ) on his b'day sometimes on father's day too .....My daddy strongest and very brave, healthy happy go lucky,early riser(get up @5 when I love to dream) and love us(my bro and sis too) so much.....that he cannot see us working instead he will work for u whether making chapati or cleaning utensil making early morning tea getting up early for revision and giving us tea was his job..ready our bottles and let us finish our breakfast....ironing our skirts .as he make better crease then my mom....respect women my mother my granny and we daughters.....really rare in those type papas but my papa help my mom in all her work my mom is working and he  help her and pamper her as needed also my mom never disappoint him @ any level the perfect couple so far I have seen  ..life was moving and all things are going with its pace ...suddenly the thing happen to us ...........
18 th JUNE 2004 early morning @ 6am  he has to rush for the train my father was had to catch the train ..he went and met with an accident and ..@ 9am  he was in comma .......his life chance are 1 % according to the doctor...we r stunt and shocked ..my mom was crying I lost my tears being local we have around 50 person at that time my chacha and tauji all with us and all are not prepared for it ...my  tears went off I do  not want to cry as I do not accept it at all ..I ask God if this happen I will be no more too.....My sister exams r on for graduation Ist yr....My brother got selected in good engineering college want to drop for IIT after 12 the ...my mom school is about to open my groom search was paced ......all things  stop for us the moment we heard the news we r insanely dumb and blank to react but definitely not ready to bear the loss....oxygen ,ryles tube,catherder, one more tube for blood pass through nose, blood ,dns ns etc.A normal human body turn into a machine shape
 19 th june 2004  early morning our relatives started coming to our place.We have close knitted big family at maternal and paternal side we r so many people at that time without words we r sitting My mom was crying holding  and telling me to get the papa back .......I am suddenly feeling ...my irresponsible brother gets big very big ..my innocent sister never touched kitchen work is cooking and entertaining guest in addition to her studies for exam..all relatives are helping to cook food .papa was not showing anything doctor look insane and adamant on 1 % issue .who bring the medicine from where no one knows
20th june 2004 .He went critical on 3rd days his pulse and body is not reacting he has continuous blood release and his body temperature want o cross 105 bt my chacha and his friend do his continuous ice cold packs for a complete one day in rotation ...my chachu gave him 2 bottle blood ..life seems to stop...the happening of ICU is puzzling all of us outside but I am not telling anything to my mother but she can make out from chachu working and the small window of ICU and my mother I can never forget it.I took charge of the medicine and all bills .I told the local medical shop to make an account for my father and we will pay at the end of the day
21st June 2004  papa open his eyes .we r happy but doctor was neutral.We have to sent the medical leave for my father.My gather her all power to meet the doctor(she is afraid the doctors,blood and injections) and this is first interaction of my mother and me with the doctor we are nervous,and blank..we three are there in the cabin then my mom said to sign the paper and for how long he will be recovered ...........he was so straight and said "recovered .......his life is in danger any minute he can.......he is comma may be whole life may be a week or may forever ..right now he is very critical only 1 % chance "............my mom and I was freeze he said this things.... my mom is not ready to believe   that there is something like this thing in the world I do not know where and what I am hearing God shielded me with dryness and neutrality...I am holding my mother ..all eagerly eyes r waiting for us to know what doctor said ...I am not crying my mother was in tears ...shivering and when we said whole thing all person were in tears and trying to support us ....
22nd June 2004  I told my brother sister whole situation .They are shocked but I need to prepare them I know we had grown 20 times the age we are God has given us strength and support of friends and relatives has given us confidence that we can face the situation well .
23th June 2004 God has mercy on us.. Struggling 3 months from comma we get our papa ...at least opening his eyes..on .papa condition was getting stable but it need to be stable for 2 weeks at least.Knowing the fact the comma situation all relatives decide to leave and come turn by turn to face the difficult situation.
28th June 2004   His oxygen was removed .but he was in ICU.we have accepted the situation .Things r so unpredictable we r around 6-7 person at a time but all are quite we r holding his hands all the time .My tauji speak OM every morning.Almost everyday I am using prayers and parshad for my father by his friend and family.
2nd July  He was shifted to room ...we have our personal room ..We  are still loaded with visitors whole day .My mother tears r now cause of concern he is getting really unstable.We tell or relatives to come in shift so that we can manage things well.They took turn
5 July 2004 My brother has to go for conselling .We went ...he just said my papa even he was in comma we r going to Delhi for conselling and touch his feet ......his whole body shake and respond it ..we r amazed .and he was confident he will get the good admission .
 20th July 2004 Me and my brother are sitting near holding his his hand I had pen in my hands .He took open and just move it in the as if he is writing now we believe he was listening to us.We are excited and tell it to our DR but he was so neutral.Just as if he do not care.He said as the swelling came down things will be better.
20August 2004 We r back home. As we enter in home papa had tubes I learn how to feed from ryles tube..then catherdarl he was still in comma .Lifeless eyes .....As we enter the gate he open his eyes ..My positivity grew up I am super happy my believe that he will be fine grow more strong
1- 5 sept 2004 we start to work with the homeopathic doctor Lokmani gupta Change in papa is quick he can see and recognize us ...1st was papa  b'day .We wished him....
29th September 2004 it was a blessing month 29th he recognized my mammiji ..he lost his voice so give him pen and paper to write .The homeopathic medicine did wonders .
 2nd October 2004 we appoint the physiotherapist still continued for him.
15 November 2004 Cathedral was removed
29 Jan 2005 He get the focal czar .I guess I skipped his medicine .As I use  give him medicine at that time.
16th May 2009 He was taken out of town for my sister's marriage  .He was happy and we are more happy and insecure for his acceptance social .We are happy .
Now ,we take him to the places which are convenient and easy to go my supermom take care of him we just visit them vacation.
 29th September 2004 he started recognizing and reacting towards us but he lost his speech.
So, far in this journey the life has shown me the various colors .We have the best and worst positive and negative of everything.To accept the person who is disabled it is still difficult in or country.
We have so many people to thank for.
Dr.Mamraj Agarwal
Dr Krishna Hari Sharma
Dr Lokmani Gupta
All nurses and staff of Baheti(Now Mattri) 
Hansraj Mehra
Physio Khan
Physio Rk Agarwal
Physio Khan
Neighbours 
Mr Porwal n family
Mr Tiwari n family
Dr Tarey n family
Mr Jain n family
Mr Sharma n family
KV Staff for there generous support and  help.


All our Kulshrestha Relatives  for there kind support and help which is actual strength beside all work
These  thing we cannot ever return you ...but always respect and remember the work , help and concern confidence they had given us in the toughest n challenging part of our life .





I want to die before I see the day when my father thing he is burden on us.my ma is super ma ............you r doing which I can't believe I can do @ this stage ...

I request you all please when you a disable person and family always be positive they don't need your sympathy they need your positivity and appreciate them for what they did ..I have seen the fit people who are dying for sympathy keep it safe for them.........













शनिवार, 2 जून 2012

उपेक्षा

क्यों कोई किसी की उपेक्षा का शिकार होता है ?क्यों इतने मबुत रिश्ते की नीव हिल जाती   है ? क्यों  सच्चे प्यार को एक इम्तहान देना होता है ?क्यों आत ही क्यों है इन रिश्तों में.........इस "क्यों" को  हर जगह देखना इतना आम हो गया  है  ....? हम किस ख़ुशी को पाने की लिए अपने अस्तित्व को खतरे में डाल  रहे है ........




उस उपेक्षा की परिभाषा को कैसे समझू कसी
 किसी के अस्तित्व को सहलाऊ बहुत से लिबास है
बहुत सी आस है एक कोटे पे लिखी दास्ताँ है
 हम याद करते है जो पल हमारे  थे
आज  से पहले  सब कुछ अच्छा था
 कसे यह समझू तुम्हे   जो कभी मेरे थे
आज किसी और के हो
इस टीस  को कहाँ छिपाऊ
कभी  हम आपके विश्वास के पात्र थे
आज आपकी की नज़र के तलबगार है
क्यों कसे इस मोड़ पे आ गया जीवन नहीं समझ  पा  रहे है 
क्या  हम कमज़ोर  थे  या प्यार में लबरेज़ थे
आपकी आह!! को क्यों नहीं पढ़ पाए .
मेरी इस उम्र के लिए आपकी यादें काफी है ...
आपके इंतज़ार में पलके र हमेशा बिच्छी  रहेंगी  ...



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