प्रश्नों

दो चार प्रश्नों के उतर तोह दे सकती थी 

पर उन जवाब से निकले सवालों के उतर तुम न दे पाते 

में कुछ अधूरे सवाल अच्छे रह जाये तो बेहतर है 

जीवन बत्तर  हो इसे सवालों के उतर की असा नहीं है

वसे भी इस जीवन की उधेबुन  में इतन गुम हो गए है   

साथ होते भी तनहा महसूस होता है 

कुछ लोगो का साथ पुराने साथी की याद अन्यास आ जाती है
फिर अपने उने अनकहे प्रश्नों में खो जाती हु
जसे जसे ज़िन्दगी चलती है  प्रश्नों के उत्तर उतने मुश्किल हो जाता है
फिर एक उधेबुन में गुम हो जाती हु
कुछ प्रश्न फिर जनम ले लेते है
उत्तर  उम्र के साथ  बदलते जाते जसे पूछे और बताने वाले बदल जाते है
इसी गुथाम्गुथी में उलझ कर खो जाते है
न जाने कब जीवन के आखिर पल करीब आ जाते है .............कुछ प्रश्न और कुछ उत्तर के जवाब में .................

रंगों

रंगों  में  तयोहर  में रंग जाये

गिले शिकवे भूल जाये 

रंगों में बाहर आ जाये 

हमारा कल भी रंग बिरंगा ही जाये 

भीगे रंगों में  घुल जाये ख़ुशी 

बुरी बातें भूल जाये 

सब खुश और मस्ती में धुल  जाये 

Being Married

Insecurities
All  became an  insecure person .some admit it ..if any person says I am not them i feel that person must be insensitive ....

 Most of us become insecure of losing relationship by any ways and any relation -- even if it is my wallet..my kitchen stuff ..my clothes ..my accessories ..the way I live  ... off course the person who is not near me .......sound funny but that truth ...(miss parents when i am with hubby vice versa )..friend phone calls .. exercise... parlor ...  regular parties ...Shopping ...making and additional  chores to regular work   ...makeup ..dressing well.. sensible utilization of groceries that we  bought ...Kids care and new activities....quality family time ...healthy talks ...gossips ..
Any change in any of the above thing make all really think about it and at time insomnia(if it is .relationship ) ..


Dependencies 
We want to cook what hubby wants .....OH REALLY !!!

Healthy.... oily food ,veggies can't cook this much .....blah blah !!

Final result -- what we plan to cook.........I guess so ..:P

Shopping -- We just say its waste what your buying...... I continue shopping for the thing we already  have (shoes,purses accessories, kids clothes  )
A list + 10 extra things per 30 items (forget 2 -3 items)
Collect so many coupons .which at time not find when needed
Dying to go for grocery check the whole shop even I want to buy one item .
Pile up the sale item ......at times really not needed(my bad)
Go in sale and grab the waste (many times )
For one things go to thousands of shops
Shop regularly and say i have done nothing this month .
Love to return clothes
Love to window shop the expensive store ..but when hubby ask to buy then say ..NO not worth it ........U r so used to spend money you work so hard...
If hubby do not take suggestion before buying then will criticizes for higher price forever...... we guess(want to smile at me )

Fights-- Any time --any where--- forever Young 
Forget the main issue go to buried once upon a time  fights ...endless and insensible at times
We do not know why ...we want he should detect my real  reason of anger  (do detectives have good life..? )
Simply sit and mostly moods are opposites one want to relax and other want to work out that day for sure .
When I want to eat spicy he want some junk ...

But really good to be married and led a regular married life joyful life eventful life ..with loads of smile and much more

Jab we met

Its has nothing common as the movie except  Kota and a couple with happy ending .
I feel that is really a good thing to remember your memories ................and  most  important  thing i start to believe that marriages are made in heaven .Time is set for everything.All is fare in love 
I was 28 all are worrying for me to have a good match ...each and every person is trying to get the Mr.Right ...........my neighbors  y relatives and everyone ...Parents are trying to get a match and all that regular stuff...........
I am always scared of everything I was lucky that i never need to take a tray and go in front of XYZ even one time...
Seeing the parents face and eager to get the good guy for me made me register to a matrimonial site ..I never checked it back do not know why one day I just checked it and  accepted few guys by showing it to my parents   ...one came for chat also but i was so uncomfortable with everything  stop doing it .We saw one message and then show it to my parents they tell me to send the details ..i send the details ...we exchanged and my parents fix the time for chating .........we had a local marriage at my place so we get involved in it we had few guest at our place so i came for the chating and chat for  more then 3 hrs ..........
by the end i guess we both are ready to get married :)
I saw his family ...my parents see them ....but they did not able to meet the guy and was very unsure of what to do ...?after approval of the family we are on phone and chating whole day and night all day ...i am on cloud nine my feelings and me ..........were out of the world a dream of Mr. Right is come true and future is calling me .............
Just 2 weeks before big day we met(ahhh !! finally so refreshing ) .............I assured him if  his or my dislike 1% about each other then we will not move ............yes i said this .............even to my parents ...Bravo !!




with in 2 months everything happen